Archive for November, 2011

Travelling Expenses

November 26, 2011
Paul Eenhoorn as ‘Pops’ Marigold



“This is part two. The tough part…

To my family and friends.

In 2008 two contractors I sold remodels for went bankrupt owing me around $30,000 one of the companies was my employer. I spent the next year and more unemployed as a lot of us did. During that period I spent time at the Muckleshoot Casino killing time. I actually won a fair amount and banked the money.

Over the last couple of years I have had a lot of dead end job starts and now finally work for a good company in the roofing industry. For various reasons I had been personally depressed for so long that the casino was the only other place apart from film sets and writing, where I could lose my feelings of pain. The reasons for that depression is a a whole other story and I suppose it’s a part of life.

The problem is that I became a compulsive gambler. All prudence left me and all sense of awareness for my actions as well as losing touch with reality. I have wasted so much and I was so ashamed that I spent my time shooting in Reno this month figuring out a way to end it all. The Reno shoot put me up in Harrah’s Hotel Casino so you can imagine how well that went.

In the end I called the gamblers help line and they referred me to a therapist who could help me. I will figure out why I have this self defeating behavior that is killing me. This addiction has destroyed my marriage as Stephanie can’t trust me after this, It has hurt my family, It has harmed my friends and screwed my reputation. It is so hard to explain this addiction that is so effectively destructive.

I am not looking for pity, I am looking for a place to start rebuilding, a reason to keep going. I am so sorry!” – Paul

Photo by Carl Nelson


Travelling Expenses

November 25, 2011

Editor’s Note:  Paul Eenhoorn is a quite noted/respected  actor about town and has a lot of varied experience to offer us.  He also writes quite well.  He’s suffered a few setbacks of late which he shared on Facebook.  Experiences he has written about with poignancy.  Which are unique – and also quite familiar, more or lessto the mass of us laboring in the Arts.  So I invited him to write a bit more about it here: about real life in the Arts.  My provisional title for Paul’s Column comes from the poem by Vladimir Mayakovsky:


Consider my travelling expenses:

Poetry –

all of it –

is a journey to the Unknown.”

Paul Eenhoorn Playing “Pops” Marigold for TV


“Back from Two weeks shooting in Reno!! It was a tough but rewarding shoot. Spent the two weeks depressed mostly.

I run on cash flow as being unemployed or underemployed over the past three years has cost us dearly. I really thought more money would be in by now from my new found sales job.

This year started auspiciously when Steph spent ten days in Overlake over Christmas with a spinal infection which we thought was a pulled muscle. By the time we got her to Overlake the doctors had a hard time controlling a blood infection. She was in really bad shape. Then there were the antibiotic transfusions for the next three months. Needless too say this all set us back even though we were insured. Also in the last year as a result of this recession we nearly lost our home and were lucky to get a loan modification.

I was talking to a close friend yesterday who has been through life and he said I should tell people about my life. I am not looking for sympathy I am in this situation and that’s all it is.

Also in the last year I shot four feature films, a TV pilot, various corporate shoots, a web show, a handful of shorts. For all that work I have earned $3000.00 most of it from corporate shoots. For that I have made myself available for friends who needed me and framed my life to accommodate the industry in Seattle. No wonder Steph looks at me and presumes me insane. My thoughts of ending this life had became so overpowering that I take anti depressants to help keep me up. It’s really hard to know you have what it takes, (based upon the feedback of others), chase the goal, frame your life to accommodate it and still try to make some sort of living in a recession. I know there are others in this place I am in who have similar pain; they have shared it with me.

I drive a beaten up Ford Windstar because I own it and it keeps running. Oh yeah I am really enjoying the fruits of my labor. I can’t even pay my phone bill, boy am I stupid.

Then there was the 55 days of the campaign on Room 13 full time at insane hours that netted me a princely sum and a whole lot of stress that I am still carrying.

I have a handful of friends that I know are my friends people like Ricco, Ross, Ernie, Richard, Andy, Becka, Aria, who actually call me on their old fashioned Cell Phone, just to say Hi, not because they want anything. Yet there are people I have done work for (unpaid of course) who won’t even return a phone call. I have a lot of shortcomings and I work on them daily. I might be stupid, imprudent, and too optimistic, with bad habits, but i try to stay loyal to friends.

To everyone who has helped Room 13 thanks. I love you all , all of you in this town who work against odds that a blind man could see are insurmountable; yet away we toil. Someone show me a brick wall that I can beat my head against. I obviously love pain.”  – Paul

Photo by Carl Nelson

Seattle Celebrity News!

November 1, 2011

WARP Show Sells Out!


Years careening forward without any quality control whatsoever is finally paying off for WARP (Writers and Actors Performing Now).  Sold out shows are becoming the rule as WARP touted up another win, finishing this past Sunday with their matinee Halloween extravaganza, “Products of a WARPed Imagination”.  Especially successful were  John Ruoff’s Seahorse Moon, Scot Bastian’s Missing the Boat, Donna Van Norman’s The Visitor, and Multiple Vocationalities by Dale Kazdan.  A surprise cameo by our own favorite actor/playwright/columnist, Jorj Savage certainly didn’t hurt attendance.   

Especially fun was this suicide on stage via Drano, in a play written by our own Rita Andreeva.  Watch it, complete with creepy music, on this well-done video.  (My favorite part, where Rose Kinne tosses her cookies, is a couple minutes in.)

To see a fuller range pictures of the event, got to: Carl Nelson Photography (link on the right) 

Photos by Carl Nelson

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